subject: And Gloomy Abyss At The Edge 2 [print this page] ... As soon as the three days, I returned to the pea. Mother somewhere gathered with a knot; philistine, of course, was not. I was left and Matrona. The windows were locked. The house was lived artisans, and all day from all floors could hear the sound of hammers or songs. We spent about an hour. Matrona was sitting in her closet, on a bench, his back to me and something to dig with a needle. Finally, suddenly began to sing softly, very softly, so with her sometimes. I took out his watch and looked at that hour, there were two. My heart began to beat. But then I suddenly asked myself: should I stop? and immediately said to myself that I can. I got up and began to stalk her. They had the windows stood a geranium, and the sun was shining brightly awful. I quietly sat beside on the floor. She was startled and at first incredibly scared and jumped up. I took her hand and softly kissed her prinagnul her on the bench again and looked into his eyes. The fact that I kissed her hand, suddenly amused by it, as dityu, but only for one second, because she quickly jumped into another time, and already in such a fright that the spasm passed over his face. She looked at me with horror to the staring eyes and his lips began to twitch, to cry, but still did not scream. I again began to kiss her hand, took her into his lap, kissing her face and legs, it is all turned and smiled as a shame, but a sort of crooked smile. My face flushed with shame. I seem to have kept whispering to her. Finally suddenly happened this strange thing that I will never forget and that led me to wonder: the little girl grabbed me by the neck and started kissing herself suddenly terribly. Her face expressed complete admiration. I almost got up and left - so it was unpleasant for me in a tiny child - out of pity. But I overcame my sudden feeling of fear and stayed.
When it was over, she was embarrassed. I have not tried to dissuade her and did not fondle her. She looked at me, smiling shyly. Her face suddenly seemed to me stupid. Confusion quickly every minute to possess it more and more. Finally, she covered her face and was in the corner against the wall motionless. I was afraid that she had frightened as before, and silently left the house.
I think that what happened was it to submit the final as the limitless ugliness, with mortal terror. Despite the Russian swearing that she had heard from the cradle, and all sorts of strange conversations, I have full belief that she still did not understand. I guess she thought in the end, what she has done an incredible offense and its deadly fault - "God killed" ...
