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The scare with my sister and the Lord does heart surgery on me.
I was living in Oregon and most of my family at the time was in California. One morning I received a phone call from my mom. She said that my sister Leslie had left a note indicating she might not be alive at the end of the day and she wanted me to take care of her kids. This was not something that I took lightly, but what could I do? I was in Oregon and she was in California who knows where? I started to pray! I asked the Lord if He could just have Leslie come up to Oregon so I could tell her about Him. About an hour later my mom called again telling me that Leslie had called and she wanted to come up to Oregon to see me. Wow! Talk about a quick and powerful answer to a prayer! I was excited! I was supposed to go and pick her up at the Greyhound bus station.
I was there early and my sister walked in the front door and not where the buses unload. The bus had not even arrived yet. I did not question her about it. Instead I suggested that we go into the coffee shop next door and I would buy her a cup of hot chocolate and myself a cup of coffee and we could talk. She started to talk about her husband Ruben saying that he knew how I felt about him and he wanted me to forgive him. I laughed and said I was in Oregon and I didn't expect to even see him for a long time. Leslie said "He is here now"
Now the last time I had seen him was before I was a Christian. He had blacked my nephews' eye and he was only five years old at the time and he pushed my mom. I knew he had hurt my sister in the past, but I looked at it back then like it was her own fault for staying with him. Anyway after this event with my mom and my nephew I had decided to kill him. I loaded my gun and went into the house where he was at. My sister and he lived in a split level house with them on the top floor and my parents on the bottom floor. I met my mom in the stairway and of course she was alarmed and wanted to know what I was up to. Anyway my mom talked me out of it and soon after I moved to Oregon.
Not long after moving to Oregon I ended up giving my life to the Lord and forgot all about Rueben. Out of sight out of mind I guess. So here I am talking to my sister who I am afraid is on the verge of ending her own life and she wants me to forgive Rueben. The last time I seen him I was ready to shoot him. Talk about some mixed emotions! I went outside with my sister and met him. Rueben asked me to forgive him and I said I would. They both stayed with me for several days. Rueben stuck to my sister like glue. Everything I wanted to tell her about Jesus I had to say in front of him. That was very hard for me, but the Lord took all of the anger that I had against him away. I still do not trust the man, but I am glad to say I don't hate him either.
Here I was excited to be able to tell my sister about Jesus and the Lord himself was doing a work on me. I got much more than I had asked for and the experience was not pleasant. However I am very grateful that the Lord had much more planned than I had thought at the beginning.
