subject: Here AM I- Send Me! [print this page] Isaiah 6:8 used to mean a lot to me! Wow, what a commitment, courage, and calm to say, Here I am, send me into battle. I have matured a little since first reading that some decades ago: yes maybe FIVE decades ago! I have also come to understand the deeper spiritual meaning. Have you ever thought about inverting those two little words? Here I AM.................send ME: the I AM that I AM! -:) That which people used to make fun of me for, or at least humor me a bit, was my willingness to GO when I felt that I had heard the Spirit speak. Obviously, I did many things that caused people to doubt I had heard or at least that spirit to which I was listening wasn't that of the Almighty. How could God call one to do something that didn't prosper them- immediately? Is that the litmus test: instantly blessing? Wonder what Paul thought then? If I have come to any good, it is that this life isn't about me as much as it is about the Kingdom, about following what one feels is an urging of the Spirit. How can a parent not pick a baby up who falls after taking a few first steps? But then, it was the words of Jane Katra that flooded my soul with encouragement. Katra writes, "I often have trouble believing what occurs when I become willing to serve as a channel for healing. When I asked the active presence of I conceived of as God, 'Why on earth are you using me for this', my answer was the same that Helen Schucman received when she asked why she should be chosen to write A Course In Miracles: Because you'll do it." Because you will do it!
Because I can depend upon you.
Because you are faithful. Etc.! I have so often wondered why it was that I seemingly cut my own throat, or did something that was sure to get me in hot water. I've come to the conclusion that all those situations weren't just my stupidity, just a detour that the Spirit wanted to take me on for various reasons. How about you? Can you say- Here I AM- Send Me? I AM can never fail. "I" can and I have, but I AM cannot fail. :-)
