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Have you ever heard someone say 'If I could only know what my purpose is in life. Do I have a purpose in life?' This on the surface seems like a simple enough question but if you look a little deeper. You are faced with some very complex problems.
The first being. If I have a predestined purpose then who gave it to me and why. If I don't find my purpose what will become of me. What if my purpose was to ask if I had a purpose and try to figure out who gave it to me. What if my purpose is whatever I decide to do, to think, and to feel. What if I am just to be and that is my purpose.
It is like throwing a deck of cards up in the air and letting them fall where they may. Could it be any different or was that the way they were supposed to fall or did they fall with any purpose. And if so what was that purpose.
Could I have stopped myself from typing this? Could I have stopped myself from saying. Could I have stopped myself and so on and so on. If God knows everything then why does it matter what I think anyway.
I think I am a free agent with the ability to make choices. But then again could that be a part of the program. What if everything I do is programmed? What if whenever I think I am changing my mind I'm really just doing what I'm programmed to do?
This kind of thinking can and has driven people crazy. Was that a part of the program or what. My head is spinning with ideas some of them good and some bad. Do I have any control over good and bad? Do my choices count? You said, I said, she said, he said, they said, and we said all combined to create what. Just another part of the program. If I'm programmed so is everyone else. Aren't they?
If you said you think I am crazy that is probably just what you were supposed to say. Are you depressed? Are you sad? Are you rich? Are you? See you knew what I was going to say next. Is that because we are all programmed?
Why did I say that? I don't know. Does it even matter? Of course it does. You dummy. Sorry I just had to say that. It is a part of my programming.
