subject: YEOWCH! Avoiding Life's Stingers [print this page] {Read Full Article Here} {Read Full Article Here}
Campus is beautiful with acres and acres of flowers, shrubberyand trees. As a result, there is a lot of wildlife activity. On my walk back to my office earlier this weekI spot a butterfly fluttering amongst the flowers etching the side of the building. My heart was immediately lifted and I caught myself smiling. No sooner did I see the butterfly, I noticed a bumble bee. My smile quickly faded and I quickly stiffened up and stepped away to avoid it. That day I knew God was trying to tell me something. Notyesterday while walking the same path did it come to me: here are two very similar things, they both fly and are beautiful creatures but, as a result of experience and/or the experience of others, you don't befriend the bee because of its' stinger. That's what God is doing in me. He is helping me discern those who have stingers and those who don't. Those who are good for me and those who are not
Don't get me wrong. It's not bad to believe in people, but for someone like me, believing in the wrong people can be draining. I can look back and see how it has lead me away from the teachings God has in store for me, from the blessings God wants to pour into my life. Like a spoiled child, I want love right now! {Insert foot stomp here} I have so much love that I believe it's enough for twobut I'm only cheating myself to think that a bee won't sting at some point. He may not sting the first hour which only helps create soul ties but he might the second or the third. It's inevitable; a high risk venture. I need to stop sacrificing myself in hopes of miraculously uncovering atrue kind of love I have desired for so long. Someoneshould love me for who I am today and whoI want to be tomorrow not justfor who I am to them and what I do for them.The love God has in store for me doesn't need to be polishedI'm the one who needs to be polished. Love is waiting for me. I'm the one who's just not ready yet.
There are consequences for choosing things that are bad for us. While we can safely admire a bee from a distance it is crazy to try and pick him up. On the same end, it is nearly impossible to catch a butterfly without a net, however that's another thing I've been noticing; there have been several times that a butterfly has hovered around me as I've walked around campus. I thought it was cool but I think it was a continuation of His message to me. Love is here. Love will find me. I don't need to search for it. I just need to work on myself and let God work in me. Love will happennaturally, and it will be a love like nothing I've ever experienced because God's hand will be all over it, polished to perfection. Praise You, Lord.
