subject: Where Dreams Come True: Believing In Yourself [print this page] In days where flash floods of doubt sweep me off my feet, I will keep seeing or hearing the words do not give up. They are like small beacons of light. No matter how murky it gets within my world, they shine out unexpectedly, just when I need them the most. Imagine fireflies on a dark night where there is no moon.
Last night somebody was singing a songdo whatever it takes to hold on. Things will change. I did not even register the words at first, then they sank in, like a voice calling out to me from far away.
This is what I think. If you have dreams that you have not been able to realize, you have two options. You can either say it is impossible for me orthere is something stopping me, something within me. If you say the first you might as well jump off a cliff. I decided long ago to deal with the stuff within me that has got in the way. There was no getting around it, no easy way out, no drugs I could take, no anaesthetic, no mantra I could say.
Truth is truth. You cannot ignore it if you want your life to change for the better. Mostly it is about self esteem and entitlement; knowing you deserve a life that makes sense to you and is fulfilling and exciting to you. Knowing you are lovable at a very deep place way beyond your intellect. Right in your heart and soul.
Big dreams need big entitlement. I have spectacular dreams, but had quite the most ridiculously minimal entitlement and self esteem. Ergo I have a spectacular amount of change to embrace. It takes time which is not a sign that I am an idiot or that it cannot happen for me. It is a sign of how powerful my dreams are, and how much I have to deal with to be able to see them come to fruition.
I am building a foundation for my good life, moving towards finding fulfillment. Standing up to all the inner messages that say my life is over, who do I think I am, I live in a fantasy world and most of all that I am a fool to desire, to dream.
No I am not. No matter how hard it gets, no matter how real the "evidence" seems to be that the change I long for is not happening, I am not a fool to dream.
