subject: Speechless [print this page] Opening my mind for the white illuminating light to purify my thinking I'm starting to write the words which are trying to confuse my head. Spinning in a circle with the same thoughts about different events my head is getting so confused so when I want to express my opinion on a subject I feel empty, even though there are so many words unspoken, who are or were desperately trying to come out. But here it comes: Bump! There is nothing, a strange silence and an aura that radiates small doses of fear stopping the communication.
After all the events and different paths my body and mind were walking, that ride mixed with different emotions, rode my to a different situation I never thought I would have to handle. Silence. Fights, misunderstandings, differences between my generation and I, provoked closing a gate I've never even thought it had existed before - emptiness in order to avoid the differences I faced, and I'm referring to all those opinions which makes a person distinguish: the way of thinking, acting in situations, dressing and all those small things.
I stopped hurting myself that I could of done it differently, every position or side I've taken, and started to enjoy the life being myself. I could never fix my health if it becomes vulnerable because of the torture of always wanting to change something. STOP. If I change all the things you've done, that will be another person and I'm meant to be me. So, in order to fulfil my destiny there is one path I should go on - mine path. If there a lots of mistakes, I'll try to fix them, but one by one, slowly and reasonably, because that is the way I could define myself. And suddenly the word are pouring an my mouth laughs. I'm not speechless.
