This part is called "Self- Realisation"

This part is called "Self- Realisation"

This part is called "Self- Realisation"

Hello...

Last I wrote about, How feminist I am, how am I suffering under "Wife Jokes", how much I hate men behaving like a helpless creature etc. etc. etc. After writing the last blog I had a lot of discussions over - "Is that what you feel???" (from my husband), "Are you unhappy?"(from my maternal family) and many more....

Even after that, I still maintained that I just wrote my mind and I do not regret it, because I was writing on men I have seen since years, my father, my uncles, friends, my friend's boy friends.... not my husband alone!!! This definitely does not mean that I am unhappy. Because when I am alone and I look at myself asking me "Are you happy??" The answer that comes like a bang is "Hell YES!!!!" Ya this may sound like an explanation to what I wrote; but it is not!!!! (I don't think more than 5 people read this, which only include my family and friends)

But if I be honest, yes it was a burst of all I have been thinking since the time I was engaged.... (Surely every day is a different day). What I used to feel then is not what I feel now....

And then came "SELF REALISATION"

I have been cooking since 3 months, experimenting, I love to watch movies, so I download 2-3 movies everyday and keep seeing them. I realised that since 3 months I have been doing everything I wanted to do since I developed interest. Cooking is my hobby, I am an avid movie watcher and there are so many other things. I could not do my favourite things because either I was studying or working and could not spare time at all.... So life has offered me just this time to do everything I wanted. I will never have this time and freedom ever in future. So either I decide to crib about it or enjoy it.... Really, how many people get this opportunity!! Everyone has some desire, they might be having dumped recipe books, dusty canvas, wrapped music instruments... and I can do it all without worrying that I have work, complete a project, will I miss the bus or train.... I am so lucky to keep all of this aside for a short period of my life and enjoy a long vacation....What just happened to me was not 'Realisation' but 'Enlightenment'... I could feel a shine and a few flowers popped up in my heart and a bulb lighted in my head like in cartoons (Bing!!!!)..

Then I turned towards my husband, I could see the sad expression on his face, I felt so guilty... Poor guy, he keeps eating everything I cook (most of them experiments), he loves his laptop and is scared of viruses and new softwares... and my movie download frequency is 15 in a week!!! and he still does not say a word!!! (Yes! here I agree my husband is a man with no choice!!)

Well finally, after looking at both the sides (unbiased).... I believe men and women both have to compromise to certain extents... in different terms though, but its difficult to judge who is loosing the most.

Another thing what I wanted to do was - writing, I am doing it. I believe I am helping my husband through writing, by respecting his love for "Silence" and fulfilling my desire of "Speaking"!!!

I feel purged now, I can now express my views and experiences on other (stuffed) thoughts I had about everything else!!! As "I always have some opinion about everything".

Love

Talkativegirl

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